Vegas for 11 Anni

Russ planned our 11 year anniversary at our Vegas home away from home! The Cosmo! We love it there and since he is a hearty blackjack player they always treat us like gold when we come. They got us 10th row floor tickets to Bob Dylan which happened to be on the night he won the Nobel Prize! As we walked in people offered us $1000 for our pair of tickets. Nuts.
I am all about his Nobel win, in college I took a whole course on his writings, poetry and music lyrics. I know his library backward and forward because of that! He inspired his generation and on and on with his social commentaries. I can't think of anyone that has done it like him since. Anyway, it was super emotional. I've invested so much time into his music and love it in so many different ways and across so many different stages of my life. I feel like I've known him since he was 19 and it's easy to picture his legendary life with each song he played. He had a great set list, filled with favorites, and then he covered Adele and Fiona Apple which were both amazing. He's got the moves, too. Lots of hip replacement gyrating type stuff. Ha!

Cosmo has the best overall food at a casino by far. They have so many amazing options its hard to leave! We did venture out for Joe's Stone Crab but it didn't live up to the hype for us. Ruth's Chris any day man! We had the best meal at China Poblano. Best view at the pool too.

Lots of shopping -- at Chloe. Russ bought me this beautiful leather jacket, not from Chloe but its like buttah.
Oh yeah, Raleigh came! He is such a champ. We had a mutual friend recommend a babysitter for the concert and he slept through the whole thing which was nice since I stressed about it a lot. 

Happy anni to us!!

Raleigh - 4 months

I am apparently no longer good at this! Raleigh is nearly 5 months old but here's some things about 4 months!

He weighed in a 17.8 pounds! HA! He's such a butterball. He is in the 90th percentile for length and weight and his head is off the charts. Ive never had a kid bigger than maybe the 60th percentile so this is new territory!

He continues to be my trickiest nurser. I am supplementing bottles every night to get him nice and full so he'll go to bed. lately he wants a bottle during the day too. My Pediatrician suggested starting solids earlier than I would normally and I am totally on board. He can EAT! Hoping with solids I'll be able to catch up nursing wise and not have to do the bottles so often. He typically wakes up twice a night but has hard nights still occasionally, too. He's drooling like mad and we've had bouts of thrush like 10 different times. OVER it! His hair is just now starting to come in on his head and his eyebrows are dark! Maybe my first dark haired babe? We'll see.

He is still the most vocal and social baby. Such a sweetheart and so cheesy. We love him so much!!

I'm not taking a ton of pictures of him, see previous month for my reasoning and also #thirdkidproblems. But I do get a ton of good ones in a row when I do make the effort here are some faves! Apparently only on the gray chair. I'm telling you its hard to find places to take pics when you have all wood floors! Maybe we'll get some variety when he's sitting up on his own. ;)


When he laughs and when he is basically yelling while talking to us. He's so good.

 First photobooth!


Raleigh - 3 months

Cripes this is late, Raleigh is almost 4 months old at this point but he has been so gosh darn cute this month how could we skip?!'

Raleigh laughs! Raleigh rolls! Raleigh sleep regresses! 

So much growth this month. I'd have to go back into Hayes and Cal's monthly updates to be sure, but I am preeeetty sure I didn't say this for them so hopefully some credibility is intact when I announce -- Raleigh is a genius. Yes, Hayes and Cal are both highly intelligent in their own respective ways, but Raleigh is advanced in a way I haven't experienced at this age. I sound INSUFFERABLE and I am laughing at myself, but this is for memory's sake so I gotta.

He mimics sounds. He says Hi. No joke. I say Hi he says Hi back. I wave at him and he watches my hand like a hawk then sticks his hand out and moves his fingers a bit. He is the most studious baby, he just watches you and examines you and bores into your soul sometimes. It's disarming in a way that no baby has disarmed me before. I am still laughing but I'm dead serious.

He is super vocal. You know those videos of dogs who howl with their owners, like back and forth they just howl together? He does this. And he'll switch back and forth between sounds and I copy his sound and he copies mine and we go back and forth for a good minute or so and it's the cutest.

He rolls from his stomach to his back and he travels quite a bit when he sleeps so guessing he's got some sort of army crawl down.

First flight // last flight

I took him on his first flight to Santa Barbara for a work thing and I hired a sitter basically blindly from an acquaintance but everything went well. I got my work done the first day and then basically cuddled in a hotel bed with him for the second day. I made and have since made the mistake again of sleeping on my stomach at night. Both times I think I clog a milk duct or something and I feel terrible the next day or so. Like flu-ish, achey, and tired. Maybe it's mastitis but I can usually get it to go away after a day. Gotta learn my lesson! I am working again to get my milk supply up but he pretty consistently gets and needs a few ounces of formula a night. He sleeps so much better and even thought I feel bad about it I am grateful for the option since flipping sides back and forth ten times gets frustrating.

Facetiming // Trying so hard to get a pic of him at the beach. Ha! He hated the sun in his eyes but loved the sound of the waves and slept most of the time.

The last few days he was up every hour or two and it rocked my world. I remember my other boys doing this and everyone says it takes forever to grow out of and eventually is the reason they all sleep train their babies, and I foresee another struggle with this. I am terrible at sleep training and hate it and don't want to do it. Russ usually ends up doing it and then I am so grateful because they sleep so much better but I just can't - at least not yet. Hoping I can help him get a better routine in place without crying it out. It breaks my heart!

I just can't stress enough how sweet this baby is. His whole face smiles, his whole face cries, his whole body gets startled when he hears a new or loud sound. It's the funniest thing. His arms shoot out like he's reaching for the walls and his eyes get wide. Every time I blow a raspberry into the air he gets startled. He's really sensitive to sound and loudness like Hayes was!

 He lights up a room, he flirts. He is everything to me I just can't complain or even wish away a single second. We're so blessed and grateful for him! All of us. Cal says "I yuv you soo0OO0ooo much Ra-wee." Hayes takes the best care of him and when I had to bring him to a thing at Hayes' school Hayes literally paraded him around. Russ looks pained when he doesn't get enough time with him.

We also blessed him this last month which is always so great. Russ friends come in droves and I love seeing the strength my boys have to look up to and turn to and grow up with! I can't remember hardly  anything about the blessing except that his body would be healthy for serving others and maybe something about kindness and getting married to a worthy woman and having a family of his own.

Raleigh as a Jedi at a birthday party


Raleigh - 2 Months

In one month Raleigh went from tiny fragile newborn to chunky smiling and vocal. He's so fun at this age and here's a bit about him!

This was him right at the beginning of his 2nd month, just a lot of sleeping. Lots of days my milk couldn't keep up with him so I was doing lactation tea around the clock, waited to work out or do anything that might effect the supply, pumped, AND still gave him a few formula bottles a week. Happily even with the struggle he chunked right up! At this 2 month appointment he was 12.5 pounds and had grown like three inches. His head is his biggest percentile and those furrowed brows still kill us all.

He loves showers with dad,
 his brothers light him up and we recently noticed he is super drawn to Mickey Mouse. So we love showing him Mickey Mouse on the TV and sure enough he is a Mickey fan at 2 months old. Ha. He'll give us laughs when he gets worked up and we love him so freaking much it hurts. He's our world and everyone lives for Raleigh time.

I moved him to his crib this month and then he got a runny nose and was up like every hour. Awful! So I moved him back to my bed where he sleeps 4 hours stretches. As if it wasn't hard enough to move him to his crib its gonna be really hard to move him now!
Hello chunkers!!

The lips though.


If you just look at Raleigh he bursts into a full face smile. It creeps up in the corner of that mouth and just busts wide open. He can't be contained and I can't stop staring in case I miss one.
The kid can sleeeeep. Not necessarily all at once, but he still sleeps a ton. It seems like he's only up for 20 min- 1 hour before he's ready to go back down. A true Frame!

His first campfire.
His brothers are still obsessed with him. They make it so fun! And annoying some times like literally the back of two blond heads in my face all the time while he's eating.

Its been super interesting but I am sort of anti taking pictures of him. At least like the posed ones, I just can't do it. I just want to hold him and take candids and pretend the online world doesn't exist. Like seeing Snapchat filters on babies breaks my heart. I can't explain it! He's too pure for this stupid world and I can't let him participate in the BS. Does that make any sense? I took these two though and of course they're cute. Maybe I'll grow out of it?


Cal's 5th Birthday Party

Cal's favorite people in the world are his cousins. They're his #1 friends and since they had a vacation planned, it ended up that his birthday party needed to be the day before Bijou. Oof! So we kept it super simple invited and did a family party + August ;) and went to this super cool climbing place called Funtopia. They had a blast!

There's this structure where they have to do a leap to grab either a stuffed bag or a bar. So proud watching my boys conquer their fears.